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September 18, 2012 at 10:35am

I'm not afraid of what has happened or what will be, more of what won't be

Grasping opportunities with hands soaked in grease, examining them by candle light, discerning based on my life experience, a life marred by trauma... bereavement... sorrow of sorrows, a life I have partaken in but not lived as one who is in control, at times holding on with a grip reflective of the speed and perils of this uncertain, uncontrollable, unreasonable, un rational ride... Coming to the realization, That... moment of clarity that engulfs the mind as a tidal wave swallows all in its path, that realization that I am merely a stowaway, merely an observer caught up in the moment... Caught up... Caught up like a fish in a net with another thousand fish destined for slaughter. Constantly being sifted like flour, submerged under water, drowned, revived and drowned again in a repeating cycle.

I'm not afraid of what has happened or what will be, more of what won't be

Life is but a vapour, but life is an opportunity... A chance to experience a relationship with He who created all things, to partake in His goodness, to fully understand No to comprehend what it is to totally rely on Him, being weak and un able... Un capable, at times un controllable, learning to cast your cares upon Him knowing without question doubt or Uncertainty that He is in full control, He who does not change like people's personalities, He who is outside of time not bound by its restraints and conditions He who is the great I AM!

He who loves me for me with no demand except for that of surrender, submission to His grace and goodness, all that is standing in my way is... Me, but by His grace I will commune with Him daily, I will walk alongside Him and explore the wonders He created, for He... Is pure and simple goodness

I'm not afraid of what has happened or what will be, more of what won't be